Just Try

Well, I guess I’m in New York. Wait. Rewind. Remove the guess. I’m most definitely in New York City. Here to conquer the world of theatre, musicality and stage–one audition at a time! Muahahahahaha! Okay, I don’t think evil Disney villain voice really suits me. At least I can say I tried? Trying is basically what this whole adventure is turning out to be. Granted, it just started. But the fact is, I’m trying to make it in a big city that far exceeds the size of my little big hometown of Salt Lake City. I’m trying to break into the musical theatre and Broadway thing. I’m trying to build a life that incorporates all of the things I love. And I’m also trying to make a living on my own terms. Trying, trying, trying. (Sorry, Yoda… Trying is a small part of doing.) Trying can be scary, I’ll admit it. Heck, sometimes even thinking about things you want can be intimidating. Putting yourself out there to try new things and embrace (or push away) things that help build you as a person is scary. But you know what? It’s so worth it. It’s weird, but my excitement for experiencing everything New York has to offer–whether that’s food, auditioning opportunities, new people and places, etc.–basically quashes all those fears. I feel like I should be scared, and possibly the smallest part of my subconscious might be. But at this point, I’m too distracted by everything else to be afraid. Perma-smile on my face ever […]

Facing My Fears

Moving to New York doesn’t scare me. What scares me is that I’m also diving head first into being an entrepreneur, aka: working for myself, as a side gig. Why am I diving into being my own boss?  Because auditions and sometimes productions don’t work well with a 9-to-5 job. I don’t want to be stuck behind a desk while I could be auditioning. I mean, that is my sole reason for moving out to New York in the first place. I need the flexibility in my schedule to be able to go to an audition I hear about the morning of without having to say to someone, “Hey, can I get an hour off to go pursue my dream?” Because, odds are, that won’t go over well and I’d be out of a job anyway. Why put myself in that position? So not only am I leaping into the largest urban jungle in America, but I’m going to be tackling running my own small business on top of it. Why does that scare me? I’ve had the security of having good, steady jobs for the past seven years–my entire working life. I’m virtually jumping into something without that security blanket, and I’m terrified. My source of income will be inconsistent, especially as I get started. Try making a budget out of that. #Grateful4Savings Plus, I’m quite terrified of the prospect of finding clients. Something about that intimidates the crap out of me. Who likes trying to sell themselves to other people? […]

Doing VEDA 2014

Due to peer pressure (again), I’m doing VEDA (Vlog Every Day in August) this year (again). I’m a creature of habit, what can I say? I love the We Blog We Vlog community and friends I’ve made through it. They rock my socks and I love all of their faces, so that’s a good reason too. Besides, I’ve noticed that VEDA over the past couple of years has happened to document big changes in my life, from getting my first full-time job, announcing my first roommate, my first apartment without roommates and moving out of my parents house. Since I’m now facing a new big life change (moving to New York in T-minus three weeks!), I figured VEDA would be a good way to kind of document and remember this whole process–and also add a new dimension of fun to it! So I guess I’m going to try despite the craziness that will be this month. You can follow me on my vlogging YouTube channel here: youtube.com/TheMikaelShort If you want a hint of some of the things you might see from me, here are a few of my favorite VEDA videos I’ve done in the past: VEDA 2013 Introduce Yourself! Stupid Stereotypes OBSESSED! Let’s Go For A Ride The Bloopers! VEDA 2012 Introduction to Mikael I’m An Adult Though I Sound Like a Kid In Case of the Zombie-pocalypse Lots of Personality from an INFJ My Lips Are Sealed… Not Living to Love Adventures of the Amazeballs Trio Shhh! They Are Secret […]

Acting Out

It was a sunny day, and the girls closest to my age were playing in the front yard. A new, older, very attractive man from South America was living with our babysitter at the time. He picked up little 7-year-old me from the driveway, and asked me my name (though I wish I could remember his name now). “Sandy Duncan!” I piped brightly, trying to channel someone new. Little boy-crazy Kel didn’t know how to react to men who looked like him yet (ahem, still in progress), so I decided to be someone else. Somehow I chose the name of a voice-over actress who happened to play in several of the movies I enjoyed at the time. “Well, it’s nice to meet you, Sandy!” And he planted a kiss on my cheek. Pretty sure my face shone red for at least an hour and I was convinced he was my future husband. Is it weird that I still remember the feeling of his lips on my cheek? Sandy Duncan is not my name, nor would it ever be. But I never bothered to correct him when he would stop and say hi to “Sandy” whenever we’d cross paths at my babysitter’s house. Ever since I was a kid, I liked pretending to be someone else. Growing up, I don’t think I had any concept of self. Make believe and pretending were my very favorite things to do, especially if it involved me being someone, or something, different. Just some examples […]

Here I Come

*drumroll* Flashback to a girl with a song in her heartAs she’s waiting to start the adventure.The fire and drive that make dreams come alive…They fill her soul. She’s in control. Been high in the Rockies under the evergreens.But I know what I’m needing,And I don’t want to waste more time. The perfect time to run someplace else. I want to be part of something good. If that means goodbye, then I guess I should… I’ve studied all the pictures–in magazines and books. I memorized the subway map too… You certainly are different from what they have back home Where nothing’s over three stories high And no one’s in a hurry or wants to roam… But I do, though they wonder why. Start spreadin’ the news, I’m leavin’ today.I want to be a part of it! In New York–concrete jungle where dreams are made of– there’s nothing you can’t do. These streets will make you feel brand new.Big lights will inspire you. The drama, the laughter, the tears just like pearls–Well, they’re all in this girl’s repertoire.It’s all for the taking, and it’s magic we’ll be making;Let me be your star. If I can make it there, I’ll make it anywhere. They say the neon lights are bright on Broadway… Broadway, here I come. *   *   * That’s right! I’m making the big jump and I’m moving to New York to do the thing: audition for Broadway (and anything else I can get my little paws on)! I’m buying […]

20 Lessons from Sinus Surgery
I didn't learn I'm Batman unfortunately.

The beginning of July was also the beginning of a better nose for Miss Mikael. I learned a couple of months ago that I had a horribly deviated septum, so I signed right up to get it corrected as I also had chronic sinusitis and some breathing issues. When I told the doc I was a singer, he said it would be a “night and day difference.” So I did it. I got the surgery, and recovery is underway. Let’s just say I learned a lot over the course of the handful of days I spent cooped up on my grandparents’ lazy-boy. However, I did not learn that I was Batman (darn it!). Be forewarned… some of it isn’t really clean–it’s a little nasty and gross. I guess I’ll get those lessons out of the way first so we can end on the good stuff. ;) 1. Doctors who tell you everything are definitely the kinds you want… But can also slightly freak you out. 2. Just stop sticking things up your nose unless a doctor does it for you. Far too easy to mess it up up there. 3. Snot is not the grossest thing that can come out of your nose. Neither is blood. I don’t dare say anymore. You’ll be scarred. 4. If someone isn’t feeling well and is strung out on strong hospital medications, put a bucket or something close by them immediately… and definitely not a zip-lock bag that hasn’t been opened. I may not remember much from […]

Keep Going

When I decided to take the Holiday Council with Molly Mahar last winter, I wasn’t sure how much I would get out of it. I built up a plan, developed goals and an idea of what I’d like to do in 2014. Now that half the year is gone, I wanted to see what had changed or stayed the same. One thing from the program still stands out to me and has stuck with me ever since. That thing was a visualization exercise during one of our group calls with Molly. We were to project our minds to go visit our future selves exactly one year from the day. Now, mind you, I’ve never been a big visualizer of things like this, so this was new territory for me. And I got sucked in like you wouldn’t believe. I kept my eyes closed as we imagined ourselves floating out to outer space then zooming back in on ourselves one year in the future. I didn’t want to know where I’d be, I just hoped it wasn’t in Utah–so I kept my eyes tightly shut as I whizzed back down to Earth. I didn’t open my eyes until I was on the street next to an apartment building. Then I was inside where I would live. Future Mikael was in a clean apartment (a shock in itself), and she was sitting as though she had been waiting for me. She arose from the couch to walk toward me. She just looked at me and smiled before pulling […]

Reviews: Spring Awakening

Opening weekend of “Spring Awakening” is over; only two weeks of the run are left. But already we have rave reviews from Utah theatre groups. Check it out! Utah Theatre Bloggers – “I Believe” in Midvale Main St. Theatre’s Spring Awakening Overall, Midvale Main Street Theatre’s production of Spring Awakening does an excellent job of showcasing incredible triple-threat talent. While many may find that Spring Awakening’s strong adult content is a turn-off, others will be able to see why the show’s theme of the disconnect between unyielding parents and their teenagers’ ignorance of sexual matters is so important and relevant. Front Row Reviewers – Midvale Main Street’s Spring Awakening is Unashamedly Envigorating Everyone will find something that resonates within them regarding the struggle of these characters. You will be brought to the point of tears or goosebumps because of these actors and what they are sharing with you. Spring Awakening helps you realize the unashamed concerns of youth, and, as Melchior states, “Shame is nothing but a product of education.”  City Weekly – Theatre Review: Spring Awakening Spring Awakening hits on the important issues that are still relevant today–particularly in Utah. It holds a mirror up to the Utah standard of pushing sex education under the carpet because we want to keep our youth innocent from the world’s dangers. The production does an incredible job at presenting the variety of personalities that make up even the smallest small village. The Midvale Main Street Theatre puts on a booming performance that resonates with the audience with the music’s […]

How divorce affected me

There’s not much I remember before I was five aside from the scarce random memory or things I can recall from watching old family VHS tapes. However, when I was four, something happened that irrevocably changed my life. I came home from school one day and heard something in my parent’s room. When I looked in, I saw my mom crying on her bed. Something was wrong. I wanted to go to her, but I didn’t know what to do, so I went to my room instead and turned on my cassette tape player to play the “Beauty and the Beast” soundtrack. Within a couple of weeks, my mom, brother and I were sleeping in sleeping bags in our living room surrounded by dozens of cardboard boxes. We were going to live with my grandma since my dad left and my parents were getting a divorce. And it’s a topic that’s come up a lot lately for some reason. In a discussion with my grandma recently, she told me something that I didn’t remember. We were driving up in the mountains, and you kept asking where your dad was. I remember you sighing and saying, “I just want to see my daddy.” I was (and still am) a major daddy’s girl so I can see why I would have said that. I’m just stunned that I couldn’t remember that for myself, and my heart broke for the little girl that I was. She had no idea why her parents weren’t together […]

Be Yourself

One of my favorite things is that everyone is different and everyone has a different story. That’s what makes the world so fascinating. I love meeting a new person and seeing where they come from, what makes them them. I especially love when someone is unabashedly themselves to the point where a part of me is shocked at what I’m seeing, but at the same time admire them for their courage to own who they are. It’s like they aren’t afraid of judgement. And then I’m discouraged when people, especially teenagers, try so hard to be something they’re not in order to conform to what their friends or society wants them to be. I’ve found that doing that just makes one unhappy. Why not embrace the person and the oddities you have? As soon as I agreed to this #DoodleDream Blog Party for Jenipher Lyn’s new book, I stumbled across this great quote from an article on Tiny Buddha called “What It Means to Be Yourself and 3 Ways to Do It” – Our true self is who we really are when we let go of all of the stories, labels, and judgments that we have placed upon ourselves. It is who we naturally are without the masks and pretentiousness.   That’s it. Get rid of the masks. Get rid of expectations. Get rid of what you think you should be and just be who naturally are. A great way to recognize who you are is by looking inward. What kind […]